what a week...

so the gf and i broked up.....you see..when i do not immediately blog about something i forget the details.....but ....it was a sort of consensus. we broke up wednesday april 14th...we met at the same starbucks that we had our first date at..and as we were weeping fucking billie holiday was singing "lover come back to me".....this time..i was the one to make the decision...i told her we could either break up then and there or she could choose to stay with me and i told her the things i would no longer put up with.....the distance between us, the lack of intimacy....other things....and well i guess she chose goodbye...

she told me she would come bye on friday to give me a present for my birthday which was monday...and to return some of my things......wednesday and thursday were hell for me..i was a sad bastard, weeping..staring at walls..drinking...not sleeping much...preparing for being single again and what all of that means....thinking for a bit that it was exhilarating to be single....then remembering how sad it was in real now life...i thought of all of the good points of no longer being with her....doing what and when i want (which i pretty much already did)...no longer having the burden of being responsible for someone else...(which really isn't a burden but only sometimes is)....being free to find another woman (i think this is a natural stupid guy reaction "hey..i will get mad crazy pussy from college chicks to dental hygienists")....then reality hit me...she is a wonderful woman.....finding someone else, anyone..regardless of whether they were as good as her....is not a process i want to ever go through again....i verymuch dislike dating...so i was again sad...

i missed her but i knew that the reasons i brought up to her were valid...and regardless of how godawful sad i was..i had to be strong....and i was....for two days...and then friday she knocked on my window....i let her in and she gave me a birthday card.....we talked...and she told me that she didn't want to break up....and we talked some more...and then she told me to go to san francisco and have fun and think about it..and let her know when i got back.....then she left...

so i left for san francisco on monday which was also my birthday...left at 3 a.m. and i drove for about 115 miles before my car just stopped going....i was in the angeles forest section of the 5 going north....just before fort tejon...so i called AAA..and it took a while because i really could not tell them any road markers or signs..it was so dark and i was not near anything really....so the tow guy took me to an aamco in bakersfield and i waited until they opened...the guy told me it was my clutch....and the parts would be there the next day..so i went next door to sonic burgers and had some chili cheese tots

here is a big picture of them:

my ex (weird to be calling her that now) texted me happy birthday and i texted her about what happened and she texted if i wanted her to come and keep me company....i was suprised and happied....so she took off of work and drove 2+ hours out of her way...we went to breakfast and i got this:

i digress but this was one effing great breakfast.....poached eggs...asiago mashed potatoes, prosciutto wrapped asparagus deep fried.....side of tomatoes and onions.....

after that her and i went to a starbucks then she drove me to my hotel....she came in for a bit and then said she had to go...as she was walking out the door she told me "you really should have a better birthday"...and closed the door....

so i took my shirt off..getting comfortable ...prepped the laptop do look at some porn..and she knocked on the door..i opened it and she flung herself into me...and we ummm....y'know.......and then she left to go back to orange county...and of course i sat back on the bed feeling like a champ...

this is a picture of the minifridge in the room:

i took a bath and had a beer

and i walked to a local liquor store...my friend andy was doing some work in fresno (2 hours away) and said he would be done near 8 and should be at my place 'round ten.....so i got these:

and then andy showed up!

he brought some yummy beers with him:

andy and i heard about this bar called the mint that was rumored to have natty ice on tap so we were off!..got to the mint:

eli told us to tell daphne hi for him but she was on vacation.....after a pitcher of bud..they were out of pbr and natty.....we went walking towards where we thought another bar was..we heard some noise across the street and walked towards it....and this is where we ended up..

and it was a lively club....this army guy or whatever chewed on andy's ear all night..the bartender would pour 2 shots when i only ordered one........we had some beers and i drank 3 shots..andy had one....i think it was chivas.....we were there for an hour maybe and after the last shot i barfed..

all apologies to the tender and guests..so andy and i left.....and he drove back to the hotel after getting some food...

the fellas at aamco had told me that for some reason my 2001 hyundai had a 2002 clutch..wtf?...so i had to book the room for a second night.....in the morning andy and i got up..and surprisingly my hangover was not too grand...andy took off to go take care of another job somewheres in goleta and i laid in bed ..took a bath..drank a few beers...then walked across the street to have some pho but it was closed so i walked another block and went to this mexican place and had carne asada..a modelo negra too....then after that i called a taxi to take me downtown to borders...hung out there for a while then went to sports chalet to buy some shorts and a t shirt to replace the one i barfed on....my other clothes are still in my car....a half mile away......then i went to cvs.....then called the taxi to take me back home where i read....took a bath and drank some more beers and that leads us to exactly the moment i typed this word.