hi hello.....bugs are hovering outside...do not know what to do....

is this a relationship journal....i will fill you and me in..

currently.....we play words with friends together...and i am still complaining to her on text...which is pretty much an art in and of......if i let it go she would never really contact me......but i am a small bastard that way.....she.......does not ever need to "talk about it" with her it is over and done.....she has no irrational emotion bone in her body...i have many...which is not her problem i know...

i am still the aforementioned n'er do well.......but i have hope in one hand and my cock in the other...

i have been selling off my grandfather's coins.....which has made me sad.....i have been helping my friend kim and her husband do chores around the house...they have a  year old...greyson...gummy....these have been enough to keep my cell phone bill paid and my booze flowing........

my birthday is in 13 days......whatever that means.....everyone wants to feel special......birthday sex would be nice but that seems waaaay too much of a hassle....and i do not have enough dough for a whore......and i do not have the heart to look up some old standards...not that there are many....they are either taken now or just way too goddamned weird for a try....

i need some human contact....maybe a few hugs will do...dunno....other friends are out there....trying the dating game or.....paying attention to their health or....getting by..........this has to be the oddest spot i have ever been in..........it could be sweet seeing how it fleshes out.......or it could be self shittiness......

i want to make sweet fuck with arabelle raphaelle.....because she seems to be the most attractive...gorgeous....voluptuous goddess around....and i can make that happen.....it is all a matter of knowing how to add.......

saving graces on my life right now.....mark lemmerman......rob kolar.......beer and booze.....my naps....my momma....ideas about the future....

mcdonald's french goddamned fries

drinking late into the night.....

oh meo

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